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24 Years Ago Today…..

October 2, 2013

Mom, me and PatIt’s hard to believe that it has been 24 years since my sister, Pat, went to be with the Lord. I can still remember the last night of her life as she lay in a coma and I talked to her non-stop (some may find that hard to believe) all night long. Was she listening? Or did she even hear me? I believe she did.

Morning came all too soon as she was wheeled into surgery to harvest her organs. That was her strong desire that others might gain health and life if anything were to happen to her. Thankfully 5 other people got a new lease on life as a result. Was that an easy decision? No!!! But it was her desire.

Many said afterwards, “she’s in a better place” – no argument there but somehow those words were not at all comforting on that day. I think too often we gloss over death and don’t really allow the person to express their grief and pain. So what happens to all that emotion? Of course, we stuff it so people can see we are strong on the outside and all the while our insides are screaming in agony. For me it has been a life lesson to learn to grieve. It is a process and one that we must allow ourselves to do or else we will suffer the consequences. And believe me there are consequences!

Nevertheless, God is faithful and He will help us open our hearts and really deal with the pain of death, if we will let Him. He waits because He is a gentleman and we can’t really be healed until we see the depth of our pain and make the choice to work through it. It is possible and SO healing and freeing!!!

Was God there with me on that day 24 years ago today? Yes! Is He here with me now? Yes, because Love is not simply something that God does, but it is who He is. His unfathomable love for Pat and for me was settled at the cross, and the cross leaves no room whatsoever for doubt. I can never love my sister as much as Jesus does!

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  1. Lynda Bancroft permalink
    October 2, 2013 10:29 pm

    Jane, it is hard to believe that it’s been that long since that stunning news!!! Isn’t it amazing what gets accomplished through all that pain??? That one can actually go on…. “My strength is made perfect in weakness….” Can only see it all in retrospect. “Great is Thy Faithfulness” and “What a friend we have in Jesus, all our sin and GRIEF to bear….” comes to mind in this moment.

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